The RAIN IS POURING HARD again…and this time..it’s gettin cold…

YOU said you will be there for me…

But why is it that I can’t feel your presence???

YOU said you are just there, ready to listen…

But why is it that I feel so alone???

Where were you during those times when I needed you the most???

When I needed someone to talk to, noone willingly came… except for those whom I still have to beg just for them to lend me their ears and spare time.

Darn… Is this self-pity now?! hahaha…wtf is happening???

Why is it that when people needs my help, I see to it that I’m always there for them…because I don’t want you guys to feel how it is to be left hangin with noone to turn to…

But when it’s me who’s in need…why is it that noone gives a damn??? hahahaha… (maybe you’re not worthy of their time mai..c’mon..)

Why do you have to disappear in my most fragile moments???

I have already dehydrated my lacrimal ducts and still, you didn’t show a sign of your presence…

You didn’t even bother to check on me if I’m still alive… (So what if you’re dead mai..who cares?haha..c’mon..wake up gurl!)

You all remember mai name only when you’re all on the verge of a dilemma…

But why is it that when you have overcome your sadness, you leave me hangin behind?

For the love of God, is my purpose here in earth is to be everyone else’s saving grace? (Like a superhero huh…like duh??!!)

Someone you’re only going to call when you need help??? And after you got what you need… you’re like "abrakadabrakazoomkazaam" puff* … up up and away! (*toinks)

Even if I don’t think twice and I always try my best to ease your burdens, for you to feel better…

I just wonder if there was 1 moment in your carefree days that you remember me…o_o

I’m not demanding anything here..hehehe don’t get me wrong, ayt? I’m just pouring everything in this bloggie coz as I’ve notice, it’s the most unselfish thing in this world. Silly as it sounds, but at least, it’s the only bestfriend that I know who won’t leave me come what may. ^^M Peace

Superheroes have weaknesses too y’know. I have my own version of Kryptonite. LOL

I’m not the strong and the brave y’all think I am. Geez..you have no idea how weak I am inside. *,*

I’m like this, lookin so invincible… it’s because this is the only way that I can save myself from drowning in my own abyss of solitude. AND if I won’t,  who else will take the risk to rescue me???

HEY… never say you will… when you’re not sure that you will be there…you’ll only disappoint me. (*ouch) ehehehe

Don’t worry… I’m a highly adaptive specie of Eve…I can find my way out of this labyrinth I’m stuck for so long.

I guess I just have to be my own hero…

Like I’ve always been.

I know for a fact that….

"It’s nobody’s responsibility to make me happy!"

^^M Peace!

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