INTROSPECTION… A ViSioN fRoM wiThiN…^^M

‘mAi.’

TweenTEEN.

YouNg and ViSiOnAry. ~,^

Simple, yet complex. Shallow, yet deep.

Strong, yet vulnerable. Hopelessly hoping.

Ambiguously pathetic. Bipolarly vague.

The sweet & sour. Knowingly unpredictable.

I strongly hold on. I weakly let go.

A TOTAL PARADOX…

I keep my idealism, but reality bombards me to snap out of it. My beliefs are scrutinized. My strength is tested. I might trip and fall, but I don’t intend to stay on the ground.

I will rise. I will soar. I will look down. I will always remember. Never to forget. Though everything is subjected to change without prior notice. I won’t suppress. But I have no control over repression. I easily get disoriented. My vision and hearing is highly sensitive.

I want to move on, but I can’t seem to let go. I want to be angry, but I can’t seem to feel hatred. I want to be happy, but I can’t seem to smile. I want to feel complete, but the emptiness just won’t go away. I want peace, but this chaos tortures me. I want to shout everything at the top of my voice, but my voice is faltering. I want to cry my heart out, but my lacrimal system has already been dehydrated. I need security so I won’t feel lost and threatened, but it’s so hard to have it. I need to catch up with time, but it’s so hard to race against it. I have no fight. I can’t compete.

2555 v/s 1??? ~_~ How’s that???

But I am trying to compensate… regenerate…levitate. And after I recuperate, I want to forget. Sad isn’t it? Damage has been done. Prevention of further injury is my goal. Avoid exposure to risk factors. Specific protection and rigid guarding is important.

I will prevail. I will rehabilitate. And the next time we’ll cross paths, my memory cells will remember you. I have an army of valiant antibodies - armed and shielded by experience and lessons. ^^M Peace!

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